Having spent the first thirty years of my life striving to meet the demands of Confucian dictates where absolute, unquestioning, immediate obedience was the only acceptable way to relate to authority (especially male authority), it was hard for me to understand how to communicate with Father God. And with thirty years of Taoism, where there is no deity, only the impersonal Tao, it was even harder for me to to comprehend Jesus.
Then, in the summer of 1982, I met Dale Enstrom, a young singer/songwriter whose songs to the Lord were blatant love songs. He had a joy I didn’t know. He was intimate with God. How did he get there? His songs had “incited me to envy,” as the Bible says. I wanted what he had.
“We’re called the Bride of Christ,” he explained. “In Bible days, being betrothed was almost the same as being married. So think of the privileges you have after you marry a man. You take on his name, you share his checkbook, you have a closeness that is personal and intimate and appropriate to your relationship.”
I began spending time with Jesus every morning, talking to Him as I imagined a bride would talk to her beloved. It was difficult to think of Jesus that way. But then, on January 27, 1983, on the morning of my birthday, I jumped up from my prayer time and wrote this birthday song. “Bride’s Song” was written not long after, and I connected them because they seemed to need to be together.
I sing these songs to the Lord every birthday. This year, I’m pleased to be able to share them with you. May they incite you to envy, for this is what the Lord longs to have with you too!